Little background, I've had back pain and shoulder pain for the better part of my adult life...The doctor I had would give me some pain meds 5/500 to use once or twice a day, at most he said. Well about two years ago "found" op's and could get the 10/325, well taking two or three turned into a bunch a day...
Skip to last week. Last week I had been off hydro for about a month with the help of Kratom, good stuff. Well my back starts giving me problems again so I go to this new VAX-D place. I talk with the doctor tell him about my back and he gives me a script he said for pain till the treatments start working...He didn't tell me what it was and I didn't even look, I figured motrin or maybe the 5/500's...Well I go to get the script filled bring it home look at it and the DR. had given me Percocet(sp?)...I couldn't believe it all these years I needed something stronger and couldn't get it now I don't want it and I get it...Well long story I got them about a week ago and have actually been able to just take two of the 60 but dang it's hard not to down a bunch.
I know some people would toss them or just take all of them, I almost did both, but I feel like if I can keep them and just be strong enough to take as needed then in my mind I'll know I've beat the stuff, if that makes sense.
my advice to you is that if they are that tempting RE: calling your name, thinking about them alot, is there someone you could really trust to hang onto them for you? You have come so extremely far and to have those percs so close, I would hate to see you start all over again. You know, on second thought, all that you have been thru before, find the strength and truly take them what they are needed for. Good Luck to you.
I am terrified of the situation you are in, Volleydog. I know that it will probably happen to me one day and I hope I have the strength to tell the doctor I am an opiate addict. If I can just do that I think that even if I do take them as prescribed I will at least have someone watching me and my behavior.
I've run the scenario over in my mind so many times...good luck to you.
Thanks...It is hard but the way I am if I didn't at least TRY to do it myself then I will always wonder how strong I can be...It's easy to not take them if I don't have them but I want to know that I can take them when needed and not abuse them anymore...Probably stupid but I have to try it this way once.
It just makes me laugh that the past two years sneaking around to NROP's getting pills and then boom this guy gives me the strongest pills I've ever had and I never even asked for anything.
once an abuser always an abuser, i always ended up right back in that situation, addicted and having to go thtu hellish detox AGAIN, pain is pain but it wont kill me, but a scipt will.
Volleydog, if you are being honest, and only taking them when you really need to, then you are fine."Take As Needed" is exactly what it sounds like you are doing. There is no reason to be worried as long as you are taking them for what they were prescribed for. Good job.
Just my own experience here. I had been on hydro for about a year...and alot of it at that. Well since then if I "dabbled" I was addicted alot quicker and had w/d's from using a little compared to what I was and for a shorter amount of time. Whether or not you should do what your doing is only for you to say, but I just wanted to share what I knew for myself about getting off and then trying again and stopping and feeling it.
I have had VAX-D treatments also. When I first started going they also gave me percocet for the pain until the treatments started to work. I had to get 30 treatments for my bulging disc in my back. I guess it worked since I don't have back pain were the bulging disc was anymore. I still have neck pain though.
Just wanted to comment on the VAX-D. Hang in there, it should help you.
I've been wanting to try VAX-D, but there are limited facilities. Would you happen to have a list of where they are in Massachusetts? I'm so glad it worked for you. I have 3 herniated discs - maybe I'll be fortunate enough to have one located near me. Do you know if they accept health insurance? I'd really appreciate your help with this. If not, is there a website I can go to?
Think of a rack from torture chambers, seriously. They hook you up and it sort of pulls on your legs and stretches you lower back. Doesn't really hurt at all I was sore the first few times but it really seems to help
The Vax-D table stretches your vertebrae so the disc can go back into place. It is called decompression therapy. I don't have a list of where they are located. I took my treatments in GA.
Search for VAX-D on this forum and you will find where I have discussed it before. There was another lady on here you took them also and we discussed these treatments in a forum several times. I am not sure about where she was from. My insurance paid 100% for my treatments. You would just have to call and ask them. Good luck.
Volleydog...how are you doing? Still maintaining your as prescribed dose? I know that I would not be able to do it if I were in pain and I had them on hand. I'm praying you can.
So far...I think I'm going to toss them or most of them...It's getting harder and I don't want to cave, but I do want them for the actual pain. I may just keep enough for a few days.
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