I posted a few months ago..but I went right back to using again...I am so ready to stop again..I am going broke paying for these pills..and I have no pain problems at all..I am just addicted to vicodin and Soma..I have been using for about 6 years..I want to stop so bad..if anyone has had this same situation and has recovered..please help me..just let me know..that your life is so much better without the drugs..and you are doing better than ever..I just want to hear some positive feedback from anyone..I just want to be re-assured that my life will be better without the pills..just write me and tell me that you are feeling better than any pill ever made you feel..and I think that I will be motivated to stop just knowing someone else did it..and now they are better off..I keep wanting to stop but I always go back because I think I can't function without them..but I know I can..I did it before I started the pills.Please help!!!

Hey kiddo, we have been wondering about you, thought mabe you fell off the planet, so you got back on the pill-mobile, do not beat yourself up about it, nor do not feel lessor or incapable of being honest with your self. The mere fact that you have brushed yourself off and have come home to your PW family says a lot for you. This psycological aspect of W/D is really worse than the physical "sickness" we are bombarded with at the start of W/D~ hang tough there, those of us who know you, are only just a keyboard away...Oh yes, as you can see, I am no long "ShamanSmiles" but am of course the same "David" Stick around, and keep posting!
As ever,
David by the way, I am sending you a private message

t is very good to see you back babyface. We will encourage you. We have testimonies. My hubby was a user and he stopped. It took him serveral tries but he did it. He used Kratom to help with the W/D and still keeps it handy when he has the urge. He says he can think straight again. He didn't realize the constant fog he was in until he stopped. He also didn't realize how short tempered he was (I sure did). You know you need to do it and just think about all the money you will save and you will regain the normal feelings you had before the drugs. They don't help with anything but pain. You just think they do.....PM me anytime. We can talk. You can do this.

Hi there babyface, good to see you again. Like David said try not to beat yourself up, admitting your problem is almost half the battle. You've done it before so you know the drill of what to expect when you quit. You will feel so much better emotionally and physicially as you well know. You just need support.

Just think of how much clearer your mind will be. You have babies to take care of and you don't want to loose them. Think of how much money you will be saving. I know you've seen the price of food and gas lately, heck being alone I can't even afford to eat! Please check in often and try to gather courage, you CAN do this.

Take care of yourself so you can take care of your babies. Be well dear lady, I'll be thinking of you.

Hang in there Babyface. There are fantastic people on this board so anytime day or night someone will be here for you.

Big hugs your way!

Hello you guys..I am sitting here really touched and emotional right now..when I seen all the messages..you guys welcomed me back with open arms..I didn't even think you guys would remember me..I swear you guys are the best..I am going to try again..and thanks for all the love..I really needed it and i really appreciate it also..I just had a birthday on the 24th..and I didn't want to start another year of my life in this way..it's so bad..my husband has to take care of everything financially because I spend all our money on my habit..and I hate that he has to handle all the responsibility..I think I take care of my kids pretty good..but I know I can be way better..I just get so mad and sad sometimes about how my life has become..it makes me cry..I feel so selfish by just wanting to dull my pain and my feelings..and i can't be there for my family..and I love them more than anything..I just wonder why can't I just stop..I know in my mind that my life will be 100% better..but for some stupid reason I keep on doing it over and over..and I just want to stop so bad..i want to have control over my life again...but I'm so glad you are all still here for me..and I am definitely here for you guys..I have been doing research on this disease of addiction..and I am really trying to get some answers on why I started and how I can stop..so please keep any suggestions coming to me..and I will continue to post and support you guys too.. ..Thanks again..when I turned on my computer this morning and saw the responses..I just felt so good and loved.

Hey there babyface. It's good that your husband is taking care of the finances. Do you think that maybe he's trying to help you by taking on some of the responsibilities? Please remember you need support now, let him take on some of the burdons you normally do. I know it's hard to relinquish some control but maybe he's really trying to help? You know how men are.

Have you looked into sub? I know several people on this board have tried different things to get off the meds, you might see if there are alternatives for you. I wish you so much luck and strength. We've missed you. How are you tonight?

I am doing ok..I am actually on sub right now..and trying to fit in some counseling meetings between my schedule..but my problem is the cravings..the sub absolutely takes care of my withdrawal symptoms..so I don't get sick at all..but after a few good days..those stupid thoughts come in my head..like just take a few hydro's and you can handle it..but it never works..I just hate being on this merry-go-round..wanting to quit but never being able to have the will power to just do it..it makes me feel like a complete failure..like these pills have control over me..and I am at their mercy..I want to be clean so bad..but the cravings and urges..keep me going back...that is my main problem..staying clean when the cravings set in..if anyone can give me any suggestions..please help..Yoga, walking.meditation.church..if anyone can tell me what got them over their craving..let me know

If you are a Christian then you know this, maybe you just need to hear it again. We can do nothing alone. Turn over your problems (withdrawals) to Him. Have faith. Read the bible. You must be a strong Christian to do this but when you have a craving, say a prayer. I say this and I'm talking to myself. I'm quitting smoking Saturday morning and I'm afraid. I have to do it. I'm sick. As I get cravings, I will pray. I will read more. I will try to turn this over to Him. I know if I do, He will take care of my cravings. He will do the same for you.

Babyface, Hi! I am not a christian, not by a long shot, but I do agree with MM, turning this craving over to a higher power, with COMPLETE surrender will help, sometimes it comes in strange way's, but in my life I have experienced
some very life changing revelations, so again, turn this over to whatever you may have a belief in. The universe IS working in your life, you CAN and will change.
My best to you today. and for all the day's that will follow.
David

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these pills have control over me..and I am at their mercy

Babyface this is absolutely true. You are the one that posted that so you know darn well this is true. THIS is the hardest part.

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if anyone can give me any suggestions..please help..Yoga, walking.meditation.church..if anyone can tell me what got them over their craving..let me know

Since you didn't ask what religion anyone practiced or what is the best yoga to practice etc. just know this. You know deep down in your heart what YOU believe in, what YOU know is true so do what YOU know will help. If that means going to mass find the time. If that means being alone for 15 minutes to read the bible, do it, if it is only sitting on the potty or in the shower mouth a prayer but find the time and do it. Rely on your husband, find strength in your children and pull yourself up and be strong and enlightened. I know you can do it. Do it before it does you.

I'm praying for you sweetie, hang in there.

The mental cravings are the worst. Just like others before stated do what you need to do.

When things get too tough for me I put on the head phones pop in some inspirational music and hit the pavement. Sometimes I can put 5 miles on my poor feet before anything would get under control.

Try anything and everything until you find what works best for you.

Pray and Pray again... Peace will come....

Big hugs go to you.. If you need anything or just want to talk I'm here and you can PM me too if you want

I can't add much to the fine support you are getting here. I will say however that you only need to last a day longer than your craving. I'm just at a month now and there is nothing. Not happy not sad, but I am clean. And I know logically, even if I don't feel it, that there will be better days. There was before and there will be again. And I'll be damned if I'm going to let a little pill run my life! Tomorrow can be yours Babyface. Peace to you. EB

That is a really nice post EB~ Almost poetic.

As David the Wonder Boy knows, I fell off the barge and need to know where I can get Sub? (whatever) it is.I was doing so WELL--and I have pleanty of excuses--but none you have NOT heard before....thanks Grits....