Hello all, well the poster that was worried about me about taking an hydro here and there had reason to. It seams it almost has kicked the cycle a little bit back in. I mentioned yesterday that I got an earache, so I was taking a few more hydro's as I was really in pain before I got the antibiotic drops. I just can't seem to feel good again. If anyone is on the east coast, you know about our heat wave, its nasty, I can't imagine working outside. I am so low on energy just being inside, I did some errands and going to the store, I was sweating in the parking lot and felt week. This week I wanted to be so good as I start my new job very soon and I don't want to be sick from WD's at the new job. So what do I do ? I've been taking 1-3 hydro's per day the last few days to get me going in the am but I think it kicked in my addiction genes and today, I almost feel like I am in minor WD. I did eat to make sure I had something in me, and I do feel a bit better, I know if I took a few hydro's I would feel great but again, I want to make sure I am able to make it through a day without them so I don't get sick from WD's. So what do I do ? Just not take ANY hydro at all ? Will that finally do it ? I thought I could take a low dose, 1 a day, how can that hurt ? I feel more now for you people in real chronic pain who need the relief but can't stand the addiction. My pain was that earache, otherwise, its just that I am tired a lot, I enjoy a good nap during the day. In fact, I may lay down now as I am feeling kinda icky. Sorry for the long post, just frusterated, I want to feel so good again. I did a few days during my time off hydro a week or so ago, but it was like I only had "windows" of good feeling. So what should I do ? I have about 3 more days free, should I just not take ANY hydro at all and rid my system of it ? Will that help ?

Happy, You have come so far

If I were you I wouldn't take the Hydros. Three

day's till work and with the amount of Meds you

have been taking will only cause mild withdrawl

if any and that you can probably handle.

That's just my opinion.

*~*Best Wishes*~*

thanks Rosie, I just wolk up from a good nap and wow do I feel great! I am gonna have a tough time working all day without these naps as I have become very used to taking an hour or 2 nap during the day. Maybe this is another good window, I feel fine, my 1st instinct would be to take a hydro to get a little fluffy feeling but no can do, I gotta stay away from the old cookie jar. If it meens keeping the meds outs the house, maybe thats what I gotta do.

Hi happyguy...I think Rosie is right, you'll be way better not taking those hydro. You've done so well, I've been following your story and wish I could be as strong as you have been, I need Suboxone or I don't think I'd ever have been able quit hydro.

Earaches really hurt I know, but have you tried Excedrin or ibuprofin?? I bet subconsciously your brain is trying to rationalize any reason it can to take more hydro.

You have done SO, SO amazingly well, keep being strong, you can do it. Do you have a doctor who could prescribe anti-depressants for the "happy guy'? That might help a lot without having to take Suboxone, which is a miracle but comes with it's own baggage.

I had to laugh when you said "a few hydro's to make you fluffy" how funny!
Don't beat yourself up if you slip. I am the "slippery poster child"...
difference is, I will be on pain meds. for life. Not just a random decision, had a long talk with my PMC, for me, it has become a way of life. I tried (and did) w/d from Hydro, not only did I suffer from the w/d, I needed to be helped out of bed, could barely walk,...for me it is a quality of life issue. I certainly support folks who are withdrawing and have empathy. Are you using Kratom? might be a good investment. I wish you well and hope you will remain a "Happy Guy"...we like happy guys on this board
Dave

thanks guys, I am happy, I previously tried the anit-dep route and didn't like it. I do take a little valium at night for anxiety. The hydro was just like a "cure all" so since I am used to it from over a year of abuse, the feeling of that is not going to magically go away. I really hate the WD's. I know I had minor ones this morning and could again tommorow, who knows. The earache is actually getting better with the anti-biotic drops, advil would help to. I am wondering if maybe taking the ambien CR is what is making me feel cruddy in the am ? It has a control reliese thing so hours later it is still releasing in you're body. Now I am one to wake up 2 times a night to hit the can and I usually feel a little dizzy as I know the ambien is releasing into me. I though, maybe that is part of the reason. It is working to help me sleep but I wonder if it is also the cause of my daytime fatigue and morning slowness. I guess I have to just learn to live life without hydro at all. Even in tough times. Unless I have a broken bone or something legit, not just feeling slugish. It sure is hard to do that though after seeing how it works. I need to remember the pain it has caused me from running out, maybe that will scare me straight. I don't have kratom. I figure I want to stay away from all of those things. I take enough already with the valium and occasional ambien. I need to work on a valium taper soon too. The journey countiues. I will say that an afternoon nap, sure does the trick to make me feel great. I wish I could nap every day!