For your very kind words of support!! How great it is to have this bored. I have been reading all the posts and I know some of you have "fallen off the wagon" but try not to be too hard on your self! I truely believe the devil uses all that guilt to slam us and it just ends up making us want more hydro...but God Forgive EVERYTIME and has never gone away from you...even if you choose somthing over him he it still there, in the back ground waiting for you to come around. So forget that guilt (I know easier said than done) and don't let those thoughts of self hatred drag you down.
Just because you took some hydro doesn't mean you failed it just means you have to hold that much tighter to God and jump right back on track wether it be cold turkey (ICK), Sub, or inpaitent...God never wants harm for us only to help and he never never never gives up.

EVILCINDER- Thank you for your kind words! It means so much that my posts made a difference! I think you are doing wonderful and I think if you can go cold turkey than all the more power to you. I know if I could have done it I would, that way you won't be wasting any more money of doctor visits or perscriptions to sub. You rock!! I remember going cold turkey when I was taking about 8 to 10 hydros for a year (this was about 4 years ago) and it was hell the first week. But on like the fifth or sixth day I remember hearing a joke and smiling and how weird it felt cause I hadn't smiled in a week (my face felt streched lol). I could not sleep for a week and my legs kept doing that restless thing but after a week I began to go back to normal. Taking HOT HOT baths helped alot. Since my hydro use got so much worse this time I went to sub and it has helped alot with the withdrawls but I am now addicted to that, so I do wish I could have went cold turkey like you, you are SO strong and God is with you smiling on you. When you said "I feel almost not worthy, beacuse he prob. has so many others to really worry about"...I know how you felt. I felt like that to...I mean why should he care when we are druggies and we deserve the withdrawl...But that is SO not true. I beleive satan tells us those things. God cares so much...the bible even says he knows the count of every hair on our head. SO when we need him in any way and turn to him he is truely glad to help. God rejoices So much when we turn to him no matter what we have done. Every single person is a blessing and is so important.

Thank you all for telling me the stories of getting off sub. I am down to about 4mgs and will be stopping that within this month (Please keep me in your prayers). I will try to get on here to post more and keep everyone updated!!!
I keep remembering this verse...It helps SO MUCH:

"Always be joyful, keep on praying, no matter what happens always be thankful, for this is Gods will for you in Christ Jesus."

Lets use this addiction to make us stronger in God! Piss the devil off...and turn this stong temptaion and sin around on him, making Good what was so bad and helping others in times that are/were so very hard for us.
God Bless

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Originally posted by MeMe:
For your very kind words of support!! How great it is to have this bored. God Bless

...is that a Freudian slip in that 2nd sentence? JK =)

MeMe - very nice note, I can certainly use the encouragement.